It Really Is Complicated

Tonight I watched It's Complicated with Meryl Streep and friends. That movie just might get your heart rate going if you have ever been in a long-term relationship-- then broken up for a long time-- then decide to take one last agonizing stab at a clearly dysfunctional relationship. Long after the dust has settled, hearts are mended and you feel better than ever.....here he comes bursting your bubble O N E more time!

When I see a person with a new mate after ending a long term relationship I can't help but wonder how awkward and wrong that must feel. But I guess it depends on which end of that relationship you are on.

For the person with the new mate, they are probably in the honeymoon stages enjoying that "strange." And for the person without a new mate they probably wonder how anyone could take their place. After all you shared so much, so much time, so many experiences, so many tears, so much laughter, love, family, friends and just time together. How could another jump in?

Been there done that! My ex and I had 15 years of history before I cut him off this last time about 2 years ago. We dated for years at a time and separated for years at a time. But I always remember the reunions--usually something monumental happens among our group of mutual friends that ultimately brought him and I face to face once again. Unfortunately in those 15 years there were funerals of our friends, weddings, baby showers, incarceration, and on and on. For the most part I have given all those "mutual friends" up. He can have them. It's easier that way.

Anyway, I can remember all those mistakes, all those times we let the heat of the moment lead us to believe we could be good together. Familiarity fogs our rationale, it's another chance to fix all the wrongs of the past. Things are different now those problems we had in the past don't exist. W R O N G! It's always fun at first and always ends the same.

The movie made me smile, I felt nostalgic for a minute but only a minute. Just like the ending in the movie, I find myself appreciating the situation I am in now. Things are different now, I am different, I have blossomed and grown in ways that just wouldn't mesh with certain lifestyles. And now I spend hours in bed discussing life and important issues. We read legal cases and listen to live oral argument for fun. I am unconventional and slightly offended by social norms and traditions, I don't want to follow the rules but I want to make them, and I found the guy who is just as strange as me. So we do things our way and I let the past stay buried in the past for NOW ON! No matter what I will never go backward again!

November 14th!? What the hell!

Happy Birthday to my brother in law. AND

WHAT THE HELL? It's the end of November and its 80 degrees in L.A. I was so confused at the grocery store last night. All the expiration dates were in December. Me thinking it's July kept gasping saying oh my god I'm not buying that if it lasts till December it must be full of preservatives. December is like 6 months away, right? Uh NO. How weird.

I am SHOCKED that the liberals haven't started clogging the news headlines with talk of "Global Warming." Where are they? Oh that's right they are too busy talking shit about President Bush for giving Kanye so much credit.

That's all for now.

Well Hello there Internet!

I had to take a break because I was on the brink of a self-induced catastrophe. I went into hiding until the dust settled...just in case anyone was really that curious about me. That person would have to find my blog and I don't think I am worth their time. But you never know and it's better to be safe than sorry.

I have learned some hard lessons over the last few weeks. My first taste of the dog-eat-dog world of lawyers. It's dangerous out there. The saddest lesson I learned was that you really can't trust just anyone. You have to be strategic at all times, there is always someone waiting for that opportunity to throw you under the bus.

Are lawyers and soon to be lawyers really all destined to be numb and heartless? Is there a time in every lawyers career when the clients stop being important and money rules all? Will we all focus on quantity vs. quality? I feel like a five year old who just learned Santa is fake.

I am not naive by any means but I did believe that it was possible to work hard and make a lot of money. I did believe that each client should be given quality attention. So far everyone tells me I am disillusioned. So sad. Guess I'll be poor but at least my integrity will be intact.

On a fun note...my LSBoy and I were partners in a mock trial. Oh my god it was so fun! We kicked ass! The best part was the guest judge was THE SAME JUDGE who presided over that murder trial i was obsessed with a few months back. Is that ironic or what?! He recognized me too! All three judges complemented me, said I had a very calm comfortable presence. Don't tell them that I took a shot of vodka before class. Hey it worked! I was so proud of LSBoy, he looked so handsome and professional up there. I'll tell you what, you NEVER want to be cross-examined by him, he will make you cry!