Halloweenie...

I'm staying home tonight...Im studying. My co workers brought me the most beautiful flowers ever today :) and breakfast! I cleaned the shithole since I will have a house full tomorrow of pre-gamers. I HAVE to be good tomorrow. I invited 3 boys that I "see" so that will be funny..hehe! I know I know why bring sand to the beach...well cuz I can.

Anyway last night was torturous. I ditched class. So all the sudden email after email starts coming in...Turns out my LAW professor decided to use MY memo as an example. He pointed out all the things I did wrong and read it to the entire class. Awesome.

My classmates were emailing me play by plays it was mortifying. I did find it funny that they all reported to me immediately. LOL! They kept trying to make me feel better...it was great. Thats what I get for ditching.

Dear friends,

As you know there is little of interest about me these days. With that said I would like to let you know that if you read my blog and then see me in person or speak to me on the phone you will likely get a rerun. Since I naturally repeat myself anyway you are really screwed. So just be brave and tell me to STFU cuz you are sick of that story. No offense will be taken but you better show up with a lot of stories or it will be one quiet evening.

Thanks for caring xoxo

p.s. good tip for preparing to mingle with strangers....just go on MSN homepage read all the articles, go to your newspaper of choice refresh your memory about current events, look up a recipe or two, read a few movie reviews, some celebrity gossip and you will be the belle of the ball or your money back! It has never failed me. I'm not a fan of the awkward silence. If I'm quiet something is terribly wrong with me.

My excuse to ditch school and his response

Email from me: Professor I have strep throat and will not be able to come to class. I am contagious and feverish. If I get anyone sick they will hang me. Attached is my first draft of the memo due tonight.

Email from him: Sorry about your illness. I will make copies and distribute them for peer review tonight to get you some feedback and arrange for them to be picked up at the faculty secretary's desk.

Email from him later: By the way it would take some really mean people to hang a person with strep throat.
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Call me crazy but that is freakin funny shit. He mustve sat there and thought about it because the last response came an hour after the first one...haha!!!! I can't respond back because I am feverish and in bed--not online blogging!!

Today is a good day

I am ditching school tonight. I tried to ditch last night but my torts mentor guy caught me and didn't even give me an optional guilt trip, it was more like "You have to go to class there is no excuse not to." What I have accomplished so far: an 85% effort at the first draft of my memo and I turned it in. It was due tonight. A practice outline and answer for another torts hypo-emailed to professor for review. And now I will get on my reading and finish torts. Tomorrow I will finish contracts and be free as a bird to party it up Sat. night for my big Dirty Thirty celebration. My friends are so excited and I did the best thing I could have done for myself: completely blocked it out. Every once in a while I imagine me and my lil nugget dancing to Whatever you like by T.I. but for the most part I haven't even worried about what I will wear. To prove it I scarfed a huge candy bar today.

In the mail....the gifts are coming in and let me tell you I am stoked!! I received the most delicious box of goodies from my friend who is a very talented pastry chef. Cranberry Almond biscotti, need I say more. Thank you darling my hips are expanding just looking at them. But don't you worry that will NOT stop me from eating them ALL by myself. I also received a DVD called Alfred Hitchcock The Legend Begins....ooooohhhhh I can't wait! That's not all....same friend sent me Justice Scalia's book Making your case. Does it get any better than that? NOPE!

Tonight I will take advantage of the pressure free time I have to read my cases and thoroughly brief them so that next week I won't be beating myself up over going out on Sat.

ahhhh...I feel great :) a lil old but still good!

Back on Track...I swear!

3:30 p.m. appointment with Professor Torts to discuss my midterm. Being the diligent lil law student that I am -- I dissected my exam and made a pretty outline of the problems I saw and made a list of questions for him so as to not waste his time. (WTF did I just say?) Anyway, he didn't care about that nor did we get to my list or outline. Ok fine. He grabs the exam and begins to read it he asks me what my score was and then proceeded to tell me OH that's really good! WTF! Then he says he didn't curve the grades so my score would have actually been higher based on what he remembered. Professor Torts said my answer was "quite good" but my organization blows. Exercise prescribed: Outline an the answer and show it to him.

Man, I left that meeting feeling soooooooooo much better not just surface better but truly better. Off to the cafe for grilled cheese on squaw..mmmmm.

No sooner do I sit down then Professor Contracts sits at the table RIGHT next to me. He asks me what I am working on and of course I was working on contracts. For the next 45 minutes him and another professor talk about EVERYTHING from his gay daughters admission to Grad School, to her admission essay that compared Jesus Christ to Dr. Seuss, to politics and joining the "revolt"...and on and on. How in the hell am I supposed to focus with him speaking so free RIGHT in front of me. The F* bombs were flying! and Loud! Good thing I talk like a sailor anyway, not that they cared. It was very distracting. Now I felt compelled to work my ass off so he couldn't kill me in class.

I get to class feeling the usual anxiety and then I'm just sick of it. So I do the pep talk and tell myself "You know this shit quit freaking out u spaz." It was obvious something was on my mind I didn't speak to anyone before class, which is unusual. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW!! The odds that I get called on as frequently as I do are just wrong. I get picked on a lot and it's not fair. I can just count on it every gawd damn day. In contracts the only thing I can think of is that he can tell I work hard he see's me studying all the time, I have all kinds of shit in front of me all the time, etc. I think he can tell I am scared and insecure and he is trying to break me of it. It is working...Build me up then break me down --over and over until I stop letting you break me down!

"MISS REBECCA YOU REPRESENT PAVEL ARGUE YOUR CASE"

Fuck you Professor Contracts! I got this. And you know what I freakin nailed it! Nailed it shut! Suddenly I morphed into this confident prepared law student who was ready to "dance" with him. Question after question...I was fine. I debated the other student who represented the Sub Contractor and backed him into a corner with RULES and FACTS! Take that Bitch! Professor pointed out several times the points I was making! "Like Rebecca said..." Once I get warmed up I flow! This is why I CAN do this. I just have to keeeeeep practicing all the time and never stop practicing....practice =confidence and confidence = ability! (In my world anyway) After class my buddies were asking me what got into me. I'm usually so scared of him I blank out. Today I just wasn't in the mood for being punked by him or the stupid voices in my head. Don't worry he will kill my high next week...no doubt.

I'm exhausted...

This week...

Nothing particularly amusing to report today. Other than I got to work at 7am and left at 9pm. I'm gonna get back at it and keep working on review for tomorrow. If Professor Contracts makes an ass of me tomorrow I will poke my eyes out.

Mission Accomplished

My boss just left me a loooooong voice mail about how much he loved his scrap book. He said he CRIED! and he would cherish it forever....

Good job M-law ladies....we effectively postponed our layoffs for probably about a month. Hey we might even make it through Christmas. Yay!

The party was at a Chinese rest. and there was assigned seating. All of my co-workers were seated at two tables next to each other. NOT ME!!! I was seated on the entire other side of the room. Believe me when I say I was on the verge of tears I was so uncomfortable. But since it was not my day nor is it very mature to freak out about this....I just handled it.

That's what I get for RSVP'ng late. I had to sit at the chinese golf club table. WTF!!! But I sucked it up and acted like a big girl. Practiced my mind-fucking and charmed the pants off all. There was a magic show performed by some celebrity magician but I don't know who he was. And lots of fear factorish food. I ate jelly fish just so I wouldn't offend the entire freakin asian table by gagging (its a Chinese delicacy). I didn't know how to get the skin off the freakin shrimp so I just put the whole thing in my mouth. UGHHHH.

I drank a lot of wine, two glasses of champagne and ended up hanging out with the stalker. YUP! Sick! So today I have the guilts and I'm stuck on stupid.

I have all my contracts shit piled in front of me but I just can't do it. AND THIS MY FRIENDS IS WHY I DO NOT TRY TO SOCIALIZE AND DO SCHOOL. I can't.

Counting Down...

The big 3-0 is in exactly one week. Big party next Sat. A good amount of people have R.S.V.P'd and my BFF is handling all the details! I don't have to do shiet! Except look fabulous.

I've lost 2 of the five pounds I had gained. It feels like more though because my clothes are all loose again! All I have to do know is start bleeding...(for school see previous post) and I'll be set.

Somedays I feel really lucky and today is one of them. My friends kick ass! They are so good to me and I am a hard friend to have. Being as intense as I am-- I generally wear people out. Even people I don't know personally...(fellow bloggers) are so damn supportive. It's nice to know when you are feeling crazy people are there to straighten you out.

Tomorrow is my Boss's bday! The M-Law gals and I made a scrap book for him. He is the sentimental type so that is sure to make him cry. I can't wait.

Why so sad....

Today was weird. ( I say that a lot and the funny thing is I HATE the word weird?!?) I felt like I was stuck in a tunnel-- totally numb and hearing buzzing all around me. Might be a mental illness but I don't have medical insurance so....too bad for me no meds. I did receive some good pep talks from those who know and that helped bring me some perspective. Thanks girls!

I had a good day at school. (My happy place) I become nuts when I am all alone studying for hours on end but when I am at school and have socializing breaks it's much more enjoyable. In fact I look forward to it. So I bonded with some full time 1Ls I met in the summer and gave them some pointers for their midterm based on the dumb mistakes I made. Hopefully, they won't have the same problems I did. I managed to talk a guy from jumping off the freeway into oncoming traffic and I bonded with the girls in the class.

Tonight was legal writing which is usually just an amusing night. My professor is hilarious and he really doesn't even mean to be which makes it all the better. Tonight he sad..."Why are you all so sad?" So we told him we got our midterms and lucky for us....he teaches exam taking also. We got a great pep talk from him. After class I asked him because he said we should talk to him if we had any questions, "When and how do you know if you are not cut out for this or do you make yourself cut out for this?" He said, "Only you know if you are cut out for this just be honest with yourself because deep down you know the truth."

And that's when the light bulbs, and lightening, went off, the buzzing in my ear stopped and I was able to see straight.........I think that's called an Epiphany....ok maybe a mini Epiphany. Point is I am not lying to myself --I am capable of doing this and doing well and I want it...BAD. What I am lying to myself about is my lack of ability. I know....I really know that I can do this. I just haven't fully truly committed myself to #1 making the best of this and being positive and #2 blood, sweat, and tears. I have the sweat and tears down but so far no blood. I need to work harder--END OF STORY!

p.s. I got 2nd highest grade on my Client Letter assignment it only counts for 15% of my grade but hey...I'll take it!

Humble Pie Anyone?...

Got my Torts midterm back yesterday. Talk about awkward...everyone became very quiet and we all acted like we had a secret. Truth is ...it was very difficult not discussing grades. I didn't because I don't fully trust these people and my grade was bad. I have 800 million emotions/thoughts about last night. I'll start with this. I really thought that I wanted my classmates to do bad in comparison to me. In reality the looks on their faces and the somber mood made me very uncomfortable. I realized that I do not want them to do bad and I do not want them to feel like failures. In fact I actually like these people.

Just like all the books say....the people who did the worst and I'm talking in the 1.--region were not the people I expected to do so bad. In fact they are the people who seemed highly intelligent which I thought would translate to a high test grade. WRONG!

I left that midterm feeling pretty good-- man was I wrong. I fell exactly in the middle which is the equivalent to failing since I wanted to score higher. (who doesn't) Accepting mediocre grades has not gone down easily...

After class last night I met with the Torts guy--the upper class mentor guy and we went over my exam. He pretended that my grade was actually good based on never taking a law test etc. I don't believe him. Anyway, he read my answer and pointed out the fact that in the very first paragraph I contradicted myself. I defined elements of battery in explicit detail under the heading ASSAULT and failed to discuss same when discussing actual BATTERY. Oh lets not forget how I completely forgot to answer anything under my own heading of Private necessity, which he called a "BIG ISSUE." Towards the end of the test I started inserting shit anywhere which led to this comment: "Awkward Organization."

I am going to meet with him ASAP to talk about this, which he encouraged anyway. Apparently this particular professor hates IRAC and black letter. I was wrong--not fatally wrong but this would be enough to loose my scholarship.

Strangely I felt good on my way home. Maybe because up until now we have had no way to gauge our progress. Although, the grade wasn't great it was something. Now I know where I stand. Tonight I get my client letter back. I feel a renewed motivation and am almost happy to have something to work towards. My Torts mentor guy gave me a hypo to work on and he is going to evaluate my answer. I will use the methods he showed me last night.

On another sad note...I think we lost about 3 guys. They never show up and I think they have all exceeded their allotted absences. This doesn't make me any more secure...I thought it would. I do find myself wondering if I really have what it takes to be a lawyer...I don't know If I do and that is the first time I have said that and really meant it. Don't get me wrong I'll fail miserably before I will quit. This is a crazy journey my friends.

I <3 Music

My favorite method of procrastination is to download new music. Here are a few of my favorites:

1. Porn Star by T.I. favorite line: "Have a great time, pull yourself a shot girl Chase it with the lime, now you feeling like a hot girl"
2. Whatever you like by T.I. you all know this one
3. Dead and Gone featuring J.T by T.I.
4. Miss Independent by Ne-Yo...he never lets me down
5. Here I am by Rick Ross (finally hit the radio :)
6. Love Lockdown by Kanye. I typically don't like him he is an arrogant SOB but if you listen to the words to this song it really is great.
7. Disturbia by Rhianna
8. Emilianna Torrina: the entire cd is awesome it's very dark and eerie


Thats it for now...good workout music.

What would u do if you weren't doing what you do?

First--- I do not regret going to law school and I want to be a lawyer, always have and probably will be happy doing it but.......I can't help but wonder what would I do if I weren't doing what I do.

Sometimes I think about what my friends do everyday and it goes a lil somethin' like this: Work a 9-5 go home, feed the kids, hang with the spouse, watch T.V., workout and enjoy living. I don't think they are plagued by any deep troubling thoughts about why things are the way they are. I spend way too much time pondering things that I don't need to. My friends all think I am strange and for the most part they are right.

They work to live. I live to work. That is the difference. I have always been that way and have always gotten over my head with my obsessive studies or work. If I wasn't spending all my time studying I would be working late and overtime instead. Wouldn't it be nice to go to work get your job done and then go home where your real day begins. What is that like? To have different priorities. What is it like to worry all day about what you will make for dinner instead of worrying about getting another 2 hours of studying in?

Sometimes I dream of owning a small home with a small yard and having a semi easy job and taking trips and vacations with my girlfriends or family. Honestly, I am not counting on a fat paycheck after all of this is said and done and I never really have. I was looking for something challenging that fit my strengths and personality type when I chose this field of work. To me it's still a good fit. I wonder if no matter what-- people find a way to make their own problems and stress seem and feel worse than another persons? I think so. Based on the other blogs I read I seem to be the only one who melts down on a regular basis. Could also be that I am a serious drama queen who needs a lot of luv and attention at all times ;) This loner lifestyle doesn't fit anymore.

On a lighter note--the girls from M-Law came through once again and saved me from my peril. We scrapbooked for our boss all day yesterday. We laughed, and laughed, and ate pizza and ice cream it was great. I felt much better today. Except I went to the gym then came home and ate a slice of pizza.....I've gained 5lbs so far! But I ate good all day and had a super hard work so I don't feel bad. I know I'm not too interesting these days but my mind is sort of mush.

I sorta hate my life...part 5

I write these "I hate my life" blog posts all the time and I either post them then delete them or never post them because it's just sucky to be a debbie downer.

But to freaking bad today it will come out live and direct from yours truly. I'm sick and freakin tired of being bored. I have no life and no friends. In ten short weeks they have all found better things to do....not that I answer when they call but....

I spent 8 long hours in the library today and still feel like I got absolutely nothing done. My shithole is going to get shut down by the health department any day now and I have no motivation to do anything. Law School beats my ass every day...it beats that stupid nagging voice to suck it up --right out of my head. Everyday I try to pick it back up and get off my ass and everyday, I sit here doing nothing.

I hate everyone. I am just flat out mean to people. This gawd damn lady in the apartment building next door, you might call her a "screamer," I call her a sick dog- getting strangled, every fucking Saturday night--like clock work. Her screams are so horribly frightening neighbors from everywhere walk over to make sure it's not a homocide in progress. I find it extremly hard to believe that whatever pathetic fuck is mounting her enjoys these horrific painful noises. Someone needs to rent her a porno or two so she can learn to make her noises in a more pleasant manner! For fucks sake! I literally get goose bumps when she starts cuz i think someone is getting killed. Today I yelled for her to shut UP!

Study group, aka operation girl power, went well. Everyone was reluctant to do it yet at the end of the day each and every one of them was grateful to have invested their oh-so precious time to studying. We had some meaningful exchanges. Thank god. Tomorrow is scrap book day with the ladies from M-Law. My bosses bday is next weekend so we're gonna make him a scrap book. Don't worry this is appropriate he loves that sort of shit. Even though my mind is in the gutter, my life is actually pretty damn good I just need some perspective or an 18 pack, whichever is cheaper.

Contracts Guru & Networking

Today I met with "the man" of contracts from last year. Strange lil guy I tell ya. What did I learn:

1. He is very special
2. He is very smart and good at every subject
3. He is mormon
4. He lives with his parents and his wife
5. He has a conspiracy theory about Obama not being a natural born resident of the US which could bankrupt the entire Democratic party. (negligence, fraud, etc.)
6. Florists are required to do more hours of training than lawyers (which is irrational)
7. He is on law review
8. He doesnt cuss...(oops I dropped about ten million F* bombs)
9. According to him I look good for my age :(
10. COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME

On my way out.........I run into special library boy/2L. He joins me for lunch. Hmmmm. Ok fine. Then I have to listen to allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll these wonderful people I MUST meet. Because networking is half the battle. As he chokes down his roast beef sandwich making a mess of himself. Now I'm afraid to go to the library cuz I know he will grab me for a meet n' greet. Think I'm kidding? Well I'm not and he did. I thought I snuck past him but noooooo he catches me in the computer lab and introduces me to the gal he thinks should be my new roommate, should I decide to move closer to school. She so happens to be this gorgeous lil Israeli girl who looks just as uncomfortable as me. Whatever, we talk for a sec. and go our separate ways.

So today I made 3 new friends. Then in class (legal research) Professor Twitchy is just not able to hold my attention so I start studying for contracts. While I am doing this I am getting text messages from the boy to my left and behind me and lil wads of paper being shot at my head by the guy directly behind me. GOOD TIMES! When grown ups socialize it can be strange.

Week 10 of 15

Where are we at here...

Well I've gone from desperately seeking a study group to having people asking me if they can be in my, already tooooo big, group. More than half the class has my telephone number (and they use it) I am the "dork" who has more interest and enthusiasm than most. Outside of school my life has been a roller coaster of radical ups and downs. I haven't found an efficient study strategy yet. I haven't fallen behind...ever. I still really enjoy the classes, professors and law school in general.

Now the question is am I really mentally prepared for this "bad grade" thing. I did tons of prep reading before law school so when I got there all these so-called shocking differences didn't phase me. (i.e. the socratic method, the self teaching, competitiveness, etc.) Hopefully, the same will be said for the curve and grades.

There hasn't been any hooking up in my section at all. Most of the old folks and full time workers have significant others. Don't get me wrong I've found the cute boys (of course) but I haven't done more than admired from a-far. Based on my progress the two weeks I have planned to not work and study for finals will be productive. I won't be using that time to catch up on reading or doing an outline. I wish* I wish* I wish* I wish* I could be in the top 10%.

How is everyone adjusting? I already feel smarter and more sophisticated I can tell my way of thinking is morphing and I like it. Having the ability to analyze things the way we do makes me feel powerful! I actually feel sorry for people who don't pursue some kind of higher learning. Whether it be trade school, beauty school whatever just something that interests you and keeps your brain active. It really is a high. I also feel like I am getting more disconnected from people who don't have any kind of intellectual interests. Conversations are so shallow and non substantive and I just crave a back and forth that is mutually beneficial. (I am officially a super dork)

You know what I deserve this! I was THE trouble maker and I am not talking little trouble I am talking jail time trouble maker all through adolescence and even into my teen years. I attended continuation school where all the pregnant girls and drug addicts go, and basically lived like a juvenile delinquent until I was about 22 years old. Although that me wasn't the real me--- it did happen. I still don't really know if it is inappropriate to tell people this about me? I feel so disconnected from it--almost like it's a story and not true. Very strange feeling to have another life, a past life, that is so unbelievable to people who know me and for me to be so candid about it.

I have no shame because I am confident in the person I am now. And I blame my parents for ignoring me and sort of wiping their hands of me from the day I was born. They admit this by the way. Even though my dad, who I am very close with now beams with pride everytime I see or talk to him. I had all this drive in me from day one but had no way to channel it because I had no direction, no guidance. Now I get to be the real me....the intellectual deep thinker who is annoying and smart!

Probably the most important lesson I have learned so far is that I can't skip going to the gym. CANT. My mood is too unstable and working out keeps me very happy. That's all.

Contracts, Consideration, and Profanity <3

Is it a full moon? Everyone was in strange form tonight but much to my amusement. Thanks for being nuts everyone!

All courtesy of my crazy Contracts Professor.

No water for you sucker...(Reed v. Nodak)

"What consideration do you get when you run a race? I dunno...a tshirt, a sticker, a waterbottle...oh wait no water for you."

"What do you do when the attorney calls you and says AHA!! we have a waiver...you look him in the eye and say I dont give a fuck about your waiver there was no contract to begin with. Oh shit excuse the F-bomb"

Kirksey v. Kirksey

"And the brother in law says get off of my land you ungrateful BIOTCH"

"The beginning of the letter from the brother in law says, you have had hard times... READ between the lines folks he means he is sorry she married his useless brother."

"The brother in law says, I want to see you so bad that I can't" Well "You should quit smoking pot too."

"Why did the brother in law kick his poor widowed sister in law to the forest?"

Student: "Probably cuz she wasn't putting out."

Schnell v. Nell

"So the old lady leaves you a napkin, a broach, a necklace...some tools, see I am not sexist I said tools!"

"How can you tell the difference between a condition on a promise and consideration? Ok so say there is this guy who walks like a spaz and you want to show your friends so you say HEY guy walk across the street and Ill give you ten bucks, this is consideration because the benefit you receive is a sadistic pursuit of happiness."

Forget it...

I don't have time for any special great 100th post so forget it. I just wish people would quit puckering their lips and throwing up random finger gestures when they take pictures its so freakin ugly...please stop.

Today is a beautiful day because those horrible santa ana's blew the smog out of L.A. (for a day at least)

Thats all...I have contracts tonight so a hysterical post is sure to follow. (Hysterical meaning me crying)

You Scratch My back....

Being the political fanatic that I am I have learned the art of "favors" long before they became a survival technique. I worked for a prominent congressman in California and did some time with the LT. Governor's office as well. Where favors are common place. And networking is a way of life. The saying "Its who you know" is a fact of life and if you want to play the "game" you better get good at schmoozing. Unlike so many women out there I feel that using my sexuality is key. I am not a feminist and some might say I am a bit of a chauvinist. But that's ok because I've climbed many a ladder, despite the odds, in my day.

Anyway, the point is........in law school I am the "go to girl" I share everything my notes, my outlines, some secrets I've learned etc. This has paid off ten fold. Not only do my classmates love me (or pretend to) but they give me things too. Today I scored a copy of LEEWs and a really cheap Microsoft office 08 FOR FREE.

THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS ALWAYS PLAY NICE....CUZ IN THE END YOU WILL WIN.

Bad Grades and Birth Control

*Im saving my 100th post for something special so I decided to edit this one. Which was terribly awkward I might add.

Whenever a girl tells me she got pregnant despite her years and years on birth control, I can't help but be skeptical. Birth control has a 98% success rate? Whatever you want to call that. What I really believe is that they didn't follow the instructions which includes doing any of the things listed below:

A. Take anti biotics
B. Don't take it at the same time everyday
C. Miss a pill or two or more


**EDIT
I failed to mention how birth control correlates to my bad grade question. Well, for those of you who can't read between my lines..what I mean is that I always feel like there is a different underlying reason than the one most commonly stated. Which are also known as EXCUSES for apathetic, irresponsible or lazy behavior. Now does it make sense?


This morning the first thought in my head was the Torts midterm I took yesterday. I started wondering do people get mediocre or bad grades because they don't study enough OR is it really that hard? I'm skeptical.

Based on obsessive blog reading and book reading I've done I want to say they don't prepare. In other words how many people really truly do past exams? How many people really practice applying the rules to obscure hypo's?

I need some evidence because I am not willing to settle with passing or median grades. And I am petrified of the heart break that so many have told me is inevitable when I get my first grades. This is just really hard to believe. I am going to say this again...its not the content that is difficult to understand its the massive amount of content we have to shove into our brains.

I'll be my own experiment since I am old, have no life and have no excuse to not study my ass off. If I still do poorly with all of this preparation and hard work then I will believe that law school is hard. The bottom line is I think people just don't sacrifice enough of their precious time to study. It's understandable because I don't know whats worse, getting mediocre grades or being miserable from no social life?

Since jobs are hard to come by and grades are a huge determinant in one's success and also because I can bet I've had more fun in my life between the ages of 15 and 29 to last a life time. This is a sacrifice I'll make even if it does turn me into a middle aged drunk, antisocial freak.

Feedback anyone?

Torts Midterm

• Ok..... I know I said no blogging but I was very good and haven't done anything blog related all day. In fact I did a lot today including a little fear factor-ish cleaning of my kitchen. Holy Shit! Those little brown bugs were so disgusting I became physically ill cleaning them up and out. I am bug free now. Apparently they love Trader Joe's pancake mix. So now my pantry is empty and my kitchen is bleach clean from head to toe. Thank the lord! I still have the hebee geebies though.
  
  Today was the big day in a 1L's life--The practice midterm. One hypothetical..one hour to complete. I was able to memorize all 7 of the intentional torts, their elements, exceptions, and defenses today. I did some mnemonic action and I wont tell you the crazy shit I came up with to remember.............Well ok just one:
  
  8-Defenses to Intentional torts
  
  Consent
  Self defense
  Defense of others
  Defense of property
  Recapture of Chattels
  Necessity
  Arrest
  Justification
  
  my sentence was: Can Sammy do drugs right now and jump. (Sammy is my kitty)
  
  Ok...one more, one more....this one is for False Imprisonment and Brian is the EX that is going to jail and probably won't escape..
  
  False Imprisonment
  Unpermitted or Unjustified
  Restraint of a person
  Confined to set
  Boundaries
  E: with no reasonable, safe or known means to escape
  
  Fuck you Rebecca Cuz Brian Escaped....(hahahahah!)
  
  So...the exam. I did it on my compter which is highly recommended I was able to make it very neat, organized and reader friendly. I am stopping myself from repeating the hypo and reliving it right now but believe me I have the hypo memorized.
  
  I followed the LEEWS approach which is a little different than we are taught and works way better. I read the professors instructions on three prior final exams so I didn't have to waste any time reading them today--I just glanced at them to be sure it was the same ol crap and it was.
  
  I read the call of the question before I read the facts. I didn't read the whole hypo instead with every material fact I listed an issue. It looked like this:
  
  Is D liable for Battery against P?
  
  Battery is the intentional causing of offensive or harmful CONTACT to the person of another.
  
  Intent refers to the purposeful action of causing bodily contact doesn't matter if he intended harm: applied and analyzed facts to see if they met this requirement.
  
  Harmful contact is impairment of the physical body or structure or function of the physical body including illness or disease. (Applied facts and analyzed)
  
  Offensive contact......(same thing defined applied and analyzed)
  
  Contact to person of another (same thing then conclusion)
  
  Any exceptions? Any defenses? Move on.....I did this for Assault, Battery, IIMD, Trespass to Land, Trespass to Chattels, and Conversion...I did not find a false imprisonment claim.
  
  Now the call of the question was this: "Discuss any liabilities for intentional torts committed by P and D." Does this imply that we should discuss defenses and exceptions or did he purposely leave that out because of time constraints etc? He did mention he would make the test easier so he could grade it faster and get it back to us. This leads me to believe we didn't have to address defenses. Also, he mentioned he hates when ppl cut and paste legal rules so instead I said "as defined above." I wonder if that is ok? In comparison to the other 5 people in the room I began typing first and stopped last and think I got about 90% done unless I missed something? I outlined my answer on scratch paper and think I got it all. I'm not sure how well I analyzed that is always my down fall but I kept asking myself "WHY." That way I could remind myself not to make conclusory statements which i am really good at.
  
  It was a great experience and it was fun to apply the accumulation of knowledge that I have built. I have an appointment to meet with the guy who was #1 in Contracts last year. He is going to give me some pointers, look over my outline and help me prepare a strategy for exam time! I think I can handle torts on my own. :)
  "

Still Nothing...

1. I almost crashed on the way to school staring at a billboard of Ryan Seacrest (i have no idea why)

2. My LAW professor is NUTS and I get the incurable giggles in that class (makes me feel like a kid again)

3. I have a midterm Sat.

4. My skinny jeans don't fit (well not like they used to)

5. I've been eating bugs--they are very small brown bugs that blend in Koshi go lean crunch cereal. Whatever Im sure I've eaten worse. (Im not kidding)

6. I have to work tomorrow

7. Still not motivated

8. I love being 1 of 5 girls in a class full of boys...even if they are all ugly (princess status)

9. I love Blinky my adorable gay legal research teacher he loves that bluebook and Westlaw (I love people with passion no matter what its for)

10. I have to get to the gym Sat. no excuses and I need to rearrange my study hours to have one full day during the weekend off. This Friday night bullshit, after work, isnt doing anything for me. ( I just end up sleeping)


I hate when people feel unhappy and don't try to take control of it. And here I am just sitting around being the enemy of fun. No more I swear. Im going to get motivated tomorrow. Here is a reminder of those simple things that bring me so much happiness:



1. Dancing my ass off Allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll night long

2. Walking down Wilshire at noon (busy, busy, business people makes good people watching)

3. The GYM!!!! (ahhhhhhhhh it hurts so good!)

4. A really super clean house not a half assed sweep shit under the fridge clean, Im talking clean linens, clean clothes, clean baseboards, no bugs....etc. (peace)

5. A clean car! (more peace)

6. Just being healthy eating right and being mentally peaceful

7. Being organized (peace)

8. Socializing!!!!!

9. Drinking lots of beer

10. Sleeping

(can you tell I hate chaos? Which is why I'm obsessed with hoarders. I must understand them and cure them)

Is that really too much to ask?

Sweet dreams................I need to take the weekend off from the internet...lets see if i can. NO myspace (which I hate anyway) no face book, no blogging, no IM....Westlaw and Lexis only. Then next week its my first NO SPEND challenge week. Inspired by the awesome tips and tools and news provided by the Sexy Budget Guy 's blog. (He named it not me ;) But hey thats probably why he gets so much traffic :) Good thinking buddy!

Nothing

Nothing is inspiring me lately. I'll try to conjure up some trouble at school tonight. That should be easy. Stay tuned...

Half way through semester one my fellow 1L's we are all running out of steam and motivation. The bad moods are contagious-- we (I) have to keep it together for 8 more weeks.

WE CAN DO IT!

Hump Day--UnImportant Random stuff

I usually spend Tues-Thurs in the City where my school is, mooching off my friends. That gets old real quick. Living out of my bags and sleeping away from my kitties. This week I stayed home and since class was rescheduled this week I have today totally off. I was going to go to work today and get in a few hours but I overdosed on cold meds last night and was in a coma all day. I just woke up at like 2pm. I will justify that by saying many many moons ago my friends therapist said, "If you are tired........sleep." So that's what I did.

I thought I heard someone knocking on my door but I ignored it. When I woke up I opened the door to see if anyone left a note. There was a package from my mom. Inside was a gigantisourus opal ring and some silver earrings for my bday. I don't like opal but I don't have any jewelry either so I'm wearing it--for now anyway. I'm old so opal is appropriate now. She usually doesn't even acknowledge me so now I have the guilts. I talked to my brother and told him that she gave me a necklace for xmas and I lost it. He told me it was real diamonds and now I feel bad. I have NO clue what happened to it and never thought about it since.

I did what every good daughter does and emailed her a thank you note. (ha!) Whatever. Then I decided to nail sheets over all my windows so it would be dark in my house. Vacuumed the cheeze its off the floor. My ferocious kitty loves cheeze its and flaming hot cheetos and coffee. Only problem is he leaves a huge mess. Oh and I'm listening to KOST. I forgot about this station until yesterday. I am not kidding I haven't listened to it in YEARS and back then it was probably not by choice. Two things are happening....I am losing my mind and I am adjusting to my new status as a 30 something. I haven't been to the gym in at least a month and I find myself obsessing over face creams. This is a girl who used to sleep with her makeup on.... Ok I gotta go do something....I don't know what but I hope it doesn't include overdosing on tootsie rolls.

Peace

My My How the Tables have Turned

MISS REBECCA WHAT IS A CONTRACT? WHAT IS A PROMISE? WAS HIS ASSENT INVITED TO CONCLUDE THE CONTRACT!!!!!!!!!!!

That southern Texas, trial lawyer scream is in my head 24/7!! Contracts ahhhhhhhh! My teacher is always amused by my humbleness in fact he very gently walked over to me and said, "MISS REBECCA you really need to have some more faith in yourself!" Awe man! Had to touch on my fragile Ego didnt ya! Jerk! He loves me! OK..........so how did the tables turn?

These SOBs that are in my Contracts class along with my normal 20 classmates started a semester before us. The first few weeks they put us to shame. Being that they had that whole semester's worth of experience with the Socratic monster. Well NOW those SOBs dont even read!? This idiot chick that I hate had the freakin nerve, after fucking up like 12 times to say that a Firm Contract U.C.C. 2-205 is the Parol Evidence Rule. Do you even know what that means? I don't see the connection? I'm SHOCKED that the professor didn't mark her absent.

Today he said to my friend, "As you can tell I am not picking on people who I know have the answer...so put ur hand down." So allllllllllllllll night long I sat, tormented by the sheer blatant disregard for our class. Dumb ass comment after dumb ass comment. What the hell are they thinking? Here's a good one........."Ummm, I'm not sure that case was from a long time ago."

The class lecture is a week behind and these people apparently think that they don't have to review the previous weeks notes, since that will be the topic of conversation in class? Is there any logic in this? WOW! This is why it pays to be old and know better! Which reminds me.........oh hell dirty 30 is in 3 weeks! Gawd damn Im old. But at least Im not an idiot! Now I know what they mean by say pass dont try to bullshit. Bullshitting just doesnt work at all.

I'm not saying any of this is relevant to the final but what I am saying is they fucked up my night--I didn't get to learn much cuz they clogged the class time with their WRONG INFORMATION! And the professor didn't correct them I think to punish them. Whatever........Im going to bed! Tomorrow I want to talk about two things:

1. Hoarders...this is a phenomena that fascinates me. I actually lived with a real live one for a short time until I told on her. I'll get into that later but lets just say there were bugs, cigarette butts, puke and cat shit involved.

2. This economic issue is going to have some serious social implications with regard to crime, divorce rates, suicide, domestic abuse, child abuse, drug abuse, etc. The news is having med. specialists on their nightly report talking about warning signs of depression etc. This is freakin NUTS! Good think my psycho asshole mom was a mental health nurse so Im all over it!

I had a dream...or nightmare

I can't remember most of it but this part sticks out. I was walking down a really super shady street and in front of me was like hundreds of people walking really fast and all of them were slipping eachother money. So imagine like 12 hands swinging in various sneaky ways to slip another money. Like a drug deal? WTF does this mean? Maybe I need drugs or maybe I need money? Maybe LSD is on my mind?

It's No Coincidence...

It's no coincidence that my initials are RP--I am the epitome of the reasonable person! Yeah right.

Anyway this post is dedicated to the blogger I stalk (hey at least I admitted it) I am just tickled by his posts. Don't worry I'm really far away but if you ever want to tour West Hollywood.....I can do that ;)

Ok, sorry I can't do the fancy yellow boxes but here it goes anyway: Negligence-RP Standards and intoxication.

Professor T: What about intoxication? Do we judge that person by the Reasonably Intoxicated Person standard? Or not?

He goes on...

What about LSD or Acid, now Ive never done either so I really couldn't tell you the effects but... lets say you drop some acid and decide to take a joy ride in the car, the steering wheel is melting and a Kimono Dragon is snapping at your face from the dashboard? What standard should you be held too?

Asshole Gunner Guy: Are you sure you never did Acid?

Funny shit....Torts is funny shit I tell ya!

Close Call

First...My Horoscope:

"Your gut-level instincts are pretty sharp today and you should trust them, even when your rational side is screaming in terror! If you listen to your intuition, everything will work out just fine."

Second, conversation with a good friend:

Me: I'm just going to leave this one up to God and hope things work out for the best.

Him: Im going to pray that God tells you he has nothing to do with this.

Third....conversation with co-worker

Him: Hey my uncle works for the DOJ and they have some openings in their downtown LA office. I ll email you his name he is expecting your email.

Me: DREAM JOB


Fourth....

EX: I'm not leaving for another month.

Me: (in my head) Was there a contract? A promise or set of promises to act or refrain from acting in a manner so made to justify the promissee in understanding a committment was made? Ummm, kinda. Was there a bargain, manifestation of mutual assent in the form of an offer and acceptance with consideration all within the objective theory of contracts? Offer: Was there a manifestation of willingness to enter into a bargain, so made as to justify the promissee in believing that their assent would conclude the bargain...? Ummm kinda but he doesn't know that. Acceptance: While reciting section 33 of the contracts restatement 2d in my head..."was their sufficient certainty that I intended to be legally bound by my outward expressions, all within the objective theory of contracts or were our conversations merely preliminary negotiations with the anticipation of a signed writting to conclude the bargain?" Was their consideration? Shit....Yes.---Oh nevermind he won't figure that out anyway.

Awesome, I can't do it anyway sorry find someone else....oh and quit calling me! Thanks.


HA. Im still broke and still driving really really far BUT Im feeling alot better about things for some reason.

Moral of the story: Everything happens for a reason...

I love....

I love law school. The End.

We're all gonna have to eat a lil shit to get by....

Times are tough. It's affecting everyone, some more subtly than others. People are sad and stressed out and resorting to desperate measures to get by.

I have at least 3 friends who are going to move in with their S/O just to save money. Each one of these people are losing sleep over this decision because they wouldn't do it if money wasn't so tight. It's really sad. Ignoring that nagging stomach ache and nervous eye twitch--doing something you know is not right. These couples are not madly in love and some are even borderline unhappy. All are settling. For those of you married folks you are very lucky. I want you to kiss your spouse today because you have each other and you chose each other. Anyway, that's not my point.

People are losing their jobs left and right. The common attitude with regard to finding a new job is that people don't want to start at the bottom. They have specific requirements for pay and location. This is not going to work. We don't get to be picky when the choices are limited. You have to eat a lil shit when times get rough. Sacrifice. But when is your decision too much sacrifice.

Is cohabiting for the sole purpose of saving money a horrible idea? Luckily my move to the condo isn't going quite that far. But it might even be too close for me.

The 3Ls are hungry

Hungry for some fresh meat...i.e. 1Ls. So far the co mingling between the different years has been zero, from what I can tell anyway.

I got to school tonight in a complete daze. It's been years since I have been this distracted. I am having serious second thoughts about my decision to move to the "Condo." I have been known to pull out of situations like this at a moments notice. Definitely a good candidate for a runaway bride episode. I am deathly afraid that me moving in to his home, makes him think he is entitled to me. Which will be a huge and possibly messy problem. I just don't feel that way about him and its his own damn fault. I was all his at one time he fucked up and I don't forgive or forget shit like that...no way jose. In fact, if anything, I still kinda secretly hate him.

My state of mind turned around quickly thank god.

School is starting to feel like my happy place. Where I can hide from life under a stack of case books. I've had one on one's with just about everyone of my classmates so I'm close to all of them. As close as you get in 7 weeks. And today the boys and girls weren't standing in different corners keeping to themselves. Today I think I like these people.

Then at break this "tall drink of water" was listening to me brag about the easy case I had to recite. This compelled him to speak to me. At which time he offered me "the best contracts outline in existence." He volunteered his email address, which I did not write down and said he would email it to me in exchange for a cup of coffee. So being the asshole that I am ...I said, "Awesome I think I have a quarter on me for the coffee machine upstairs..I'll be right back." He didn't like my answer but persisted anyway. It ended with me saying Id bring him a starbucks gift card with $2.00 on it for his "black coffee." he was cute tho... :(

That didn't stop my classmates from teasing me about it later. Whatever...I forgot the boy repellent today! But I needed a little lovin cuz I aint feelin so cute these days. Law school makes me feel frumpy. There is a certain kinda crazy that just can't be supressed at all times....boy crazy...I got my fill for the month now I'll go back to giving everyone dirty looks. (omg its only Oct 1st)



The housekeeper didnt come to the 'Condo' so I guess I'll go sweep or something. Then off to sleep to start all over again tomorrow.

Getting to know you....

Week 7 in law school. Things are moving along. There are only 6 girls in my class so we decided to do study group stuff this month. Finally! Shit. I was so stressed out about this when school first started. I realized quickly how unimportant it was at that point. Lemme tell you about these fine ladies.

1. My Fake Friend: shes ok probably the only one I could see myself being friends with in the "real world" she's distant, cold, competitive, ok looking somedays are better than others. The thing I like the best about her is that she thinks I am hilarous! Yay! Ive had her in tears which I love. My Contract law professor immitation is priceless and I did it in front of the whole class by accident.

2. The Woman--kids, husband, soccer lady very sweet and probably the only real genuine nice person. BUT she bathes in perfume. Peeeee U!

3. Fake lash girl--man this girl gets allllllllll dolled up for school fake lashes n all. She has a pretty voice tho. She isn't very friendly but I like that quality in a person. Means they are guarded which means they are smart.

4. Whoa nelly---this girl is about 400lbs, I went to highschool with her and she misses a lot of school but she is easy to be around has a good disposition and seems fairly intelligent

5. TMI girl--last night in a matter of 20 minutes I learned the following about her

• She's a sex addict
• She's an ex meth addict
• She dated 3 guys at one time one of which broke her nose
• She smokes Malboro reds (hard core)
• She smells like moth balls
• Her mom is dying of cancer (so sad)
• She was accepted to a top tier school and chose my school instead (????)
• She hates her dad

When people spill their gutts like that and say crazy shit I try to remain calm and pretend that I'm not screaming in my head. All I kept thinking was OMG I'm trapped with this girl for a long time. I hope she witholds any future confessions.

I guess I'm a bit of a hypocrit since I say whatever I want on here and random strangers read it but....I just don't think it's appropriate to tell someone you barely know that you want to fuck the brains out of the big fat contracts professor?!?

BTW, I also learned that a large majority of girls crush on their professors. Which is why all the advice you hear includes "Don't sleep with your professors" WOW! Come to think of it the adorable gay research teacher is kinda cute....;) Thats how I stay safe I just crush on gay guys.